Kyle Featherstone and I have the world’s most millennial meet-cute. In fact, we could write a new “You’ve Got Mail” if we wanted to. Highly Attractive Blonde Boy meets Even More Adorable Blonde Girl on the internet and they live happily ever after. That’s almost exactly how this friendship started.
In the years that have followed, I have driven miles, flown in planes and purchased lots of coffees to be supportive of the soul that I have gotten to know. Not only was he dreamy and talented, but, Kyle also became a friend like none other I’ve ever had. He is compassionate, kind, genuine and above all things he is brave. Can I be honest with y’all for a moment? I would choose his friendship a million times over if I could. I stand behind him, next to him, wherever he’ll ask me to in this and all future endeavors.
You see, as growth and change hits all of us so did this wave of ache for Feather. He was evolving. Sometimes, that includes walking away from well worn paths in the familiar ways of touring bands full of friends you love and choosing something new to protect your own joy and goodness. It is a choice that is different for everyone. He was finding new skills and embracing the possibility that comes to all of us post life changes. What do I do now?
As many of you may have figured out, the re-launch is my “What do I do now?” cry. So, I decided that snuggling up with a soulfriend in the name of change was the perfect way to christen the new music series.
It was before sunrise on a cool morning in March when this process started for me. I was stuck. I hadn’t written in months. I hadn’t read anything that sparked my interest. I hadn’t worn makeup in weeks. I was not myself. It was time to take control of the goodness inside of me before it escaped. So, step one? I opened an empty word document.
I stared at it for an hour. I reheated my coffee twice, pacing my new home for some semblance of the writer that used to live in the woman who lives here. The haiku that came about two hours later went like this:
Coffee cannot wake dreams
lying in unwashed sheets
Washed in pen’s new dawn.
Now, I’m not a poet, but, it was a start. A flickering, deep start with no full flames. But, flickers are where hope shows the way in the dark.
What do I do now? I read a lot. I listen to almost too many podcasts. I’ve turned to learn new skills (Hello HTML and CSS!) but, I’m still finding my footing. Watching the man I knew Kyle to be recognizing his own greatness has been such a joy. It has been an encouragement to me in my own journey and I hope we can make it so for you!
While I should have called to sing him Happy Birthday a week or more ago, instead I clicked “play” on the remix he did of Lauv’s “I Like Me Better” and y’all, I channel my own mother with pride fueled dance moves! Tammy would be so proud. It’s a freaking great song.
In the last year I have tried to convince the man I will never call “Feather” out loud to do many things.
“Will you produce a song for my wedding to the man I’ll decide not to marry in a month?”
“Will you make a moment for coffee with me when I’m in your city in a month?”
“Will you be my best friend?” He always answers with a joyful, darling “Yes”. This step into his new adventure is that. A joyful, hope-fueled “Hell yeah!” in response to the universe’s “Do you trust me?”
I am so beyond grateful that I get to be a teeny tiny part of this moment for you, Kyle. Keep being great. I’m so proud of you.
Check out Feather’s remix of Lauv’s “I Like Me Better” right here!
You are so loved. Go Change the world.